I've decided that I have too much stuff to write about, so I'm going to pick random pictures and tell stories that way. This picture was taken on the 1st of May, 2010. I remember that date because it was the beginning of my self changing. My caterpillar days you could say. I had just gotten through an awful relationship with an awful person. I wanted to be different, and so I started. It was slow going at first, but I didn't give up. My mom was a huge influence for good, as were my siblings. I swear I got a call at least once a day from one of them, giving me encouragement and hope. At the time, I didn't want to hear anything about church stuff because I was so overwhelmed with how much changing I had to do, but I eventually got over that, and started asking my Heavenly Father for help. At this point I was in my cocoon. Then something amazing happened that I didn't know was happening until after the fact. Help came. I was given a friend of common faith. Someone I looked up to. Someone that helped me through so many adversities into the light. He didn't even know it at the time, but he rescued me from the darkness. He was and still is my idol. I still can't believe it sometimes. That I actually married my personal savior. I still have to check myself for dreaming. I guess my reality is finally better than a dream now. So, for those that find life unbearable, don't stop hoping and dreaming, and striving for what you want. Never, would I have imagined when this picture was taken, that a little over a year later, I would be sitting here on my own couch, in my own house, married to the man of my dreams, writing a blog (of all things) and feeling so happy I could implode. In life, we fall down. It's what we do when we get up that's important. Now, I'm just busy being the beautiful butterfly I was meant to be.